To each his or her own.
But having my grandchildren here for a weekend was GLORIOUS. We did crafts. We sang. We took walks. We played in the treehouse. My granddaughter jumped into the goldfish pond to pull out all the algae! OMG, we had to hose her off before popping her into the tub.
You were subjected to an abusive, dysfunctional childhood and I can understand being turned off from that. I just want to point out that having a smaller and more loving family is different from a huge and dysfunctional family.